Oh sure it happens every once in awhile… abit of discomfort.. a small abnormality in the chest area… and to Google I go.
If you think you are having a heart attack
a professional would say to get help immediately
If I followed a professionals advice I would pay too many ambulance bills for nothing.
this is not a list of symptoms to verify that you have a heart attack
though I could probably list them for you
if hundreds of websites did not do the same.
I hate heart attacks
I hate how vague their symptoms are
I hate how their symptoms could be applied
to so many other harmless conditions
I hate how I obsess over whether or not its my final hour.
Sure I try to control the panic
Sure I say..
” If I’m still alive in a hour”
” I’m not having a heart attack”
still even that doesn’t help
when the panic strikes again
Perhaps the term is hypochondria
Perhaps the term is being a paranoid little girl
I don’t even know
Still when the day comes
when I actually do have a heart attack
I suppose there are worse ways to die
then sitting on a computer
and googling whether your dying or not.
I suppose I could like be like those websites
I suppose i could give you the cheap advice of doing exercise
that very few have the motivation to do.
still if you can go out for a small 10 minute walk
once a week.
once a month even
you can say that you exercised
and it will be easier to reassure yourself
that you don’t have a heart attack.
if you think you have one
but have that feeling
that your making things up.
Still if you have the general symptoms
and you have that feeling
that something is wrong
its not a web page that you should be looking at…..