The Diagnosis

You imagine it happening to you, you have to if you are sexually active in this day and age.  You think about whether or not you can live with the diagnosis.  You never imagine that you will get the news and learn that it’s not you  it’s someone you love.  Suddenly everything changes and you are living with HIV, only you are not the one infected.

It’s hard, trying to figure out what to do next.    How to pay for the endless need without insurance?  How to remain upbeat and keep the faith when faith seems so hard to hold on to?  It hurts everyday to imagine that someone I love may die.  It hurts more to think that the death may come due to lack of knowledge and money on my part.  I guess I know that now is the time for me to educate myself as much as possible.  It’s all so overwhelming, but I can’t afford to be overwhelmed.