Depression Kills!
This article is meant to convey the message to those suffering from depression. It is based on real experience. Any viewpoints mentioned is just personal suggestion, based on personal experience.
Have you heard of depression? I’m sure you do. It’s a common condition of mental disorder. But do you know the seriousness of this condition? Have you experienced the worst of it, to the level where you almost lost your life? I did.
I don’t remember how I got it, but what I do know is that, it had been dwelling inside of me for a very long time. I could feel it. It’s like it had become part of me. We were one.
“How does it feel like?” some may ask, and some may even tease about it. “Oh, just go party around with hot guys!”
You think it’s that easy? No! It’s not something that you can control of. It’s not just ordinary mood or feeling. It’s much more severe. Picture this, you feel your heart is burning painfully and your stomach becomes heavier and heavier. Migraine starts to spread all over your head and at the same time piercing through every nerve in your head. Then, suddenly you can’t breath. Panic burst out as you grasp for air but the pain is still there. It didn’t stop. In fact, it repeat itself again, the whole sequences of symptoms.
Imagine, suffering like this everyday. What would you do?
I tried to commit suicide twice. I did not want to go through all those agony again. It had been haunting me since I was 12. I had enough!
My last words before I passed out, after attempting second suicide, were, “God, why do I have this disease? Why making me so suffering?” Yep. Those were the words that prompted God to answer me back. It was His trial and tribulation for me. That was why he saved my life twice.
You see, after I managed to escape the second death, I realized that ending my life wasn’t really a good idea to stop ‘it’. It was a coward excuse. The best way is to find out how to prevent ‘it’. My parents brought me to a psychiatrist who then prescribed me horrible pills. Let me tell you, the professionals can really explain books of theories to you. Nevertheless, it helps. At least the doctors made me express out all my painful experiences. I felt good about it. But then, somehow, ‘it’ came back again. So, to me, seeking doctors were not the way to cure my sickness. It did help a little; I mean it was like taking pain killer pills. It did stop my soreness a while. But what I really need was more than that.
The only person that could help is myself. I am the best ‘medicine’ to prevent depression. “ I need to fight it. I can’t always let it drag me down. But how?” I began thinking of ways to tackle the matter. Then I realized, that each time I failed to achieve my goal or lived up to other people’s expectation, I would unknowingly upset and feel pressured. And if I avoid confronting the problem, the pressure doubled. With my habit of bottling up my feelings, things worsen dreadfully.
That’s right! That was why I had depression. I tend to avoid things, which I wasn’t able to solve. I thought doing something else would keep it away. I was wrong!
“This is not going to change anything.” I thought. “ I’ve got to face it. Whenever I have any challenges or problems, I need to face it.”
And you know what, from that day onwards, I have been dealing any sort of difficulties that arises in my life. I never avoid anything. I have faced it. I never feel blue again. I have gained strength, mentally and spiritually through all the challenges. Like I said before, it was God’s trial and tribulation for me. It was meant for me to grow stronger and to understand that, I need to face and solve every problem that happen in my life. Not to avoid it.
So, dear friends who are still suffering from depression, I’d like to say, that it’s alright to have depression. I know how hurt it is, but you need to fight against ‘it’. Don’t ever avoid the problems especially when it has gotten worse. Face it, like I did and you’ll soon see the sunshine in your life again!
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cortez G. | Sep 30, 2006 | Reply
good one!
dolphin_011006 | Sep 30, 2006 | Reply
and then He told me, My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness. Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. 2 Cor 12:9
To Christ our Savior and LORD be the glory. Amen.
Cheers! : )
chingal | Oct 1, 2006 | Reply
is it that bad?? i hav it 2 but not like urs..anyway can i ask how much u pay 4 doctors
bingobingo | Oct 1, 2006 | Reply
depression won’t kill if uhandle it properly
it’s hard.
but i dunt haveit hehe
jenffer | Oct 1, 2006 | Reply
i think you ar wrong bingobingo. if you don’t have the depression just be considerate i too almost commiteddd suicid
helena | Oct 2, 2006 | Reply
sometimes i ve it too. may be u should try first,to drink a big cup of plain water, second take a deep breath for a few times. try it… or u can try to change your daily life style..
steve thompson | Oct 7, 2006 | Reply
Perhaps one of the biggest spirit-killer disease.A disease that test our faith.You are right jeanigal, by avoiding things will just turn worse.Thank you for this such a encouraging articld]e.
perez boy | Oct 8, 2006 | Reply
bueno, me no hav this symptom but i can c lots of hell comin thru it. my parents kill themselves from it. so guys take care. n love urself.jesus loves u.
sabok jandara | Oct 8, 2006 | Reply
Are faithful to GOd?? Seek his way n you’ll see the way
sabok jandara | Oct 8, 2006 | Reply
God bless…. may u live in peace
dominos | Oct 15, 2006 | Reply
I don’t noe y all of u are experiencing.. but to me go seek doc man!! The best one ,, for me..
jason poole | Apr 3, 2009 | Reply
try seeing a homeopath, they can make natural remedies which work really well you just need to explain your problems and their symptoms to them so they can work out what you may need.
mike | Jun 13, 2009 | Reply
To call suicide in the face of morbid depression “cowardice” is a belittling statement that is not true. Depression is so awfull that sometimes the BRAVE thing to do is to kill yourself.ITs not the RIGHT thing to do. But in the midsts of the horror that is depression,to kill oneself is a relief of the intractable pain of the sickness.Its only “cowardice” to people who don’t understand the agony of the disease. I hate hearing people espouse the “cowardly act of suicide” As if your facing the germans in world war 2 and ran away. Depression is the absolute in suffering. IT lasts to long to be sane. grieve over them,but do not judge.
Anonymous | Aug 14, 2009 | Reply
this was super hard for me to read cause i have the same problems you have and probably worst. i avoided it for years. i drank non stop to cope with pain for years. i always reminisce about time i didnt have depression and it killed my soul. i was in denial that i can overcome it and let me tell you its hard to impossible to get rid of it in my case impossible. it took me 10 years to realize that i cant overcome it, i left it up to god. what helped me a lot was herbs like saint john but it doesnt completely fix the problem. i also feel the same way its god’s “trial and tribulation” and i feel just like you that over years that depression and me become one that i even enjoy it in a sick way. my depression started from bad choices and bad siblings upbringing and psychological torture from family. none of my family understand it which is even worst, they thought i was going through some teenager phase, now that im a 31 year old grown man, they look me as a weirdo since i still have it. i never tried suicide cause i fear god although i thought about it a lot. all i know that we are given this life and its a trial, maybe god want to test us, maybe in afterlife we will find peace i have very little friends and i cut family members out of my life that were negative towards me. i should rather forgive em but the pain is beyond what i can handle so its hard for me to forgive for all the times they hurt me. a doctor cannot help you, it is something we all have to fight withing our soul. hope you find peace. you have a lot of courage to discuss a topic like this cause i dont. i feel embarrassed to discuss to discuss it cause i feel ashamed about it cause i dont want to appear weak to noone. i wasnt able to beat it for last 11 years and i know i cant beat cause my brain and heart has been damaged from negative experiences. maybe god can bring so peace to my soul one day. to all the people stay strong. catch you in next life. bye