Programs Destroying Lives

Social Security, Food Stamps.  Aren’t these programs supposed to be there to help people?  Here in Texas, they also have a program called the Indigent Program.  All three of these programs don’t work for the disabled, the starving, or the homeless, like people probably think they do.  It’s not just my story and my bouts with all of them, but others I’ve encountered along the way have ran into similar problems, some totally far fetched, kinda like my scenario.  My story starts with me and my wife’s situation to illustrate how these programs don’t work like people think they probably do.  Ending with other people’s similar problems and a solution that can fix it all.  My story starts with my beautiful wife, 38 years of age and noone caring about her as a child to make sure before she turned 18, she had some kind of disability income coming in.   I met my wife 2 and a half years ago, I have to tell the whole story to illustrate what we’ve been through to show you the programs we have for American citizens, needs to change now, not tomorrow.  Prior to marriage, my wife showed no illness, yes, we married rather faster than most probably agree with, yet I hear me and my wife aren’t alone.  Either way I learned about my wife’s illness, farther into the marriage, maybe so 6 months, I say.  She started getting real violent, taking things I would say, in the wrong way at first, as time progressed, I realized I was dealing with bipolar, which I never knew nothing about.  Long story short, over the last 2 and a half years, I’ve learned as much as I could about my wife’s illness.  Finding since our marriage, realizing a history first documented at my wife’s age of 11 or 12.  The first doctor said bipolar and put her on all kinds of medication such as: Lithium, Resperdal Contra, Depakote, etc.   Probably too many to list.  My wife endured medications prescribed by this psychiatrist (doctor), that had my wife not knowing her name, going to the wrong house, driving 150 miles past her job, all kinds of stuff and in the end, later, over time, my wife found out this doctor had been allowed to monitor her in her parents home, in the bedroom, in the shower?   Need I say more?  That was my wife’s first  doctor, that her parents had her going to and my wife continued going til the age of 20 or 21,when she found out he was a weirdo monitoring her and she was furious.  She tried to tell authorities, their disbelief because I’m sure everyone thought my wife was making this up.  

That was the first doctor she went to.  The second doctor ran tests and told my wife, she really didn’t think my wife was bipolar.  She never told my wife what her diagnosis was. All she said was  she thought she wasn’t bipolar, yet, gave her prescriptions for Geodon, Abilify, Resperdal, etc.  My wife seen this doctor for years before we met.   She kept trying to tell this doctor, she was getting worse and her doctor’s reply was she thought she couldn’t do anything else.  That was the second doctor.   The third was a psychiatrist that my wife picked from the phone book after her former doctor telling her, she couldn’t do anymore.  This psychiatrist from the phone book, long story short, went with her parents one day and he specifically told her parents she needed to see a neurologist/ should of never been on medication ever, leaning more towards the Lithium, could have done more damage.  This doctor wasn’t sure if it was from some abnormalities to her skull, after feeling her skull/ or from the beatings from her prior marriages, or both, definitely shouldn’t have taken Lithium for all those years, medications period!!   Her parents laughed at the psychiatrist and even disagreed with him.  She never got to see that neurologist and even told them later, in the hospital, she was in there pregnant from her ex and bleeding because he had hit her in the stomach, she told the doctors then, like her psychiatrist had told her, she needed to see a neurologist, they all laughed it off there too and told her she was crazy.  Everybody passing the buck.  Then me and my wife married. I find out all this in time and that she had given her boy up for adoption, because she felt like it was the best thing to do in her mental condition.  6 more doctors after this, all of them diagnosing her one says bipolar, the next says personality disorder, next one said schizophrenia and paranoah, and none of these I took her to would listen to me or my wife, trying to tell them my wife needed to see a neurologist.  Again, all of them just giving her more prescriptions to try, alot of them wanting to  put her back on Lithium after we told them about all the run in she had with Lithium.  A couple mentioned eventually, recommending a neurologist, but said here, you need medication, of course none of this medication worked, caused breathing problems, or made my wife worse with the repeating, schizo, paranoah, this was when my wife mentioned to me, vaguely, she had been seeing things and hearing voices and sound loss in her left ear, probably from the prior beatings or medication.   The last doctor we took her to, because noone’s programs were working, my wife’s conditions were getting worse, blackouts, real violent, jealousy, paranoah/ schizo, it was getting real bad, it took me alot to convince my wife to see these other doctors because none of the others have done her any good.  One doctor agreed with the neurologist theory, scheduled an appointment and we couldn’t get there financially.  I finally took her to one of the main state hospital, to get her help and she agreed to go, now this psycho takes the cake, meaning I believe their intentions were to disrupt the unity in our marriage, by convincing my wife to do things she really didn’t want to do.  I think they wanted to just keep her in there.  One of the caseworkers had the gall, while I’m waiting on my wife to get out, the nerve to ask me and I quote (you mean you’d take her back).  I didn’t realize I was losing my wife taking her to the hospital to get her help, I called the hospital several times and spoke with her social worker, they all acted like they were helping me and my wife, then later, I called the hospital and got my wife on the phone and I could hear a woman in the background telling my wife, and I quote ( tell him to bring your stuff up here and we’ll put in lockdown), at this point I realized these people were trying to destroy me and my wife and they never even knew me.  The evil people that they are!  My wife informed later that I was right about what they were trying to do.  You see that’s the sad thing about my wife’s condition, when she was on her medication, it made her worse, believing anything anybody would tell her.  They were literally trying to keep her in there I think.  Me and my poor wife chose to get away from everyone, my family, her family, everyone blamed me and my wife because of her condition.  We found out real quick, who our family was. Nowadays, that only includes, me, my wife, my God and my Jesus, my dog.  We refuse to have so called friends and family because we realized through all this, they never cared or loved us like they say and most in my family and hers, or even employers and doctors have tried to destroy me and my wife.  My wife and I have lost everything more than once, we’ve lived in our van in the woods, we’ve lost good homes, cars, vehicles, fixing to lose it all again.  Because Social Security lost my wife’s files they claim.   Now we had to get an attorney to scare them with, it worked, they found some old files now and all of a sudden the attorney tells us, we have a claim, all we have to do now is wait.  Go see all their doctors now, go through their process?  How do I accomplish this when I have to be at home with my wife and can’t work?  I have no income.  I have no insurance.  We have no food.  We are fixing to lose our 30 foot camping trailer, it’s a junker, but it’s shelter.  I won’t be able to pay the rent, the utilities, nothing, I have no money.  The reason why me and my wife are losing everything again, is because Social Security, Food Stamps and the Indigent Programs don’t work.  In order for my wife to get food stamps, I’m supposed to get her to another doctor to give them a letter stating she’s disabled.  Social Security prolongs it all by losing files, the Indigent Program, 25 miles from my home, fill out paperwork, just to get you enrolled in all these programs, where do these people think I’m going to get the money for gas, money for car insurance, money for rent, money for utilities, if I’m at home with my disabled wife.  It’s life threatening if I’m not home with my wife. It’s either pick my job or pick my family, so I chose my family, it’s just a no win situation.  My wife should of had her Social Security check a long time ago.  These programs are destroying lives, if I had the money, I’ve spent or lost going through all these programs the last couple of times they didn’t work either, I would be rich.  Many will say I’m preaching to the choir.  My comment is Yeah and that choir don’t work either, just like these programs don’t work.  I think feed the children might help me and my wife before food stamps will.  Question What’s it going to take?  I can’t be at work and be at home too.  My wife don’t comprehend this, she really don’t.  Either way, she could blackout, take off walking, end up in a car with anybody and not realize the dangers, until it’s too late, burn our trailer down cooking.   She can’t drive.  Would you want to drive on the road with my wife, knowing she might blackout at any time and hit you head on, killing your family or your kids?   Would you want my wife behind the wheel on medications that don’t work? 

Hallucinating.  Most people would probably say, I wouldn’t take the medication either.  Then get this, my wife’s attorney tells us it’s hard to win a case when you go in front of the judge and you tell him, you’re better off not taking the medication.  Let me ask you this?  Would you take the medication if it wasn’t doing you  any good and possibly frying your brain worse?  Would you take the medication if another doctor (psychiatrist), told you, you should of never been on it?  My wife’s been everybody’s guinea pig.  Both of us are fools to think Social Security, Food Stamps or the Indigent P rogram is ever going to do anything.  I thought that’s why we are fighting wars in other countries to save lives and help people before it’s too late.  How can the United States make these statements when they’re not true?  I’ve already emailed President Obama/ we’ve already told Social Security/ done been there and done that with Food Stamps/ already been to the Indigent Program/ How many other doctors does she need to see?  Funny thing is seems like everyone  believes a lie before they believe the truth.  That’s what’s wrong with your programs here in the United States.  You have to prove this and prove that like you’re a liar to begin with before you believe the truth here in the United States.  You’re always guilty until you can prove your innocence, that’s how your systems work, and that’s what needs to be fixed.   How about the United States believing in the people again?  Like our Constitution says it would, one nation under God, indivisible, Liberty and Justice?  There is just right and wrong in this old world.   Our country used to have it right, headed in the right direction.  It’s obvious our country’s got it all wrong when they won’t listen to their own people.  I’m trying to save a life here and it just so happens, it’s my wife’s and noone’s listening.